I'm really quite lost of myself recently and I want to find me back. It's hard to be a little different.
I admire people that lead a simple life and know fully who they are despite, maybe, not having as much as I am fortunate enough to possess.
They can be themselves and smile all the time and they are unafraid of judgment. Lucky them.
Me, I'm just always wanting more, never satisfied, waiting for things to happen, not working hard for them.
Well, for that fact, I know that's just who I am.
Poof. Would someone just give me what I need now so that I won't be craving for it anymore? Or maybe I should try harder?
The latter, of course, would be more advised by everyone else except me. I know.
But I'm not prepared 'cause I'm afraid of judgment and embarrassment. I'm like that.
I do know what my identity is, but I still want to improve.
Greedy bitch I am.
I just need a friend who understands this side of me and is willing to go higher together with me.
